OH BABE WHAT HAPPENED (TO YOU)  

WHAT HAPPENED (TO US) 

TRAPPED (IN A ROUTINE)

You cry (fall asleep in my arms)

You cry (i have never been so open with anyone)

You cry (you allow me to be)

 

It’s funny life can change so quickly (you say)

And then you cut (cut me out)

Babe, yes it’s funny (PARALYZED)

We were color (me orange, you green)

I am blue (you become black)

ON THE EDGE  

(I cry) An ocean of tears

(I feel) An ocean of fears

A spectrum of colors, glitter and pride 

 

It had to end to begin?!

without anything to numb (you?!)

anything to numb (us?!) 

IT'S OKAY SWEETY IT'S GOING TO BE OK

Your soul arrived 

Dein Körper in Einzelteile zerlegt (disassembled) 

BLUT WASSER FETT KNOCHEN (hormone)

KÖRPER (without emotions)

(zu viel) EMOTION

helpless vulnerable

emotionally dead OBSESSED

I could feel, can feel (something coming)

a distance in between (you and me)

counting the seconds, down to 

waiting 

measuring

calculate

fear and rejection transform into anger and rage 

after coke and booze

I wake up (next to her) nothing from you, I cry (silently) 

wake her up and fuck her

you were like, it was like probably not even 3% of my life

but it was enough to change (absolutely everything) 

 

Don’t be a stranger (No, I won’t be) and then she leaves

Safety : Insecurity 0:1 

Holding on (to an Illusion?)

Don’t push me away (when you feel rejected) 1:1

We have all the time in the world

 

Show everyone what a Babe you are I take her into the Darkroom, take her in the Darkroom Fist her (she comes) take her home and cum while (you) let her fuck you

 

I needed to hear that you want me  (silence) 

I love you and want to be with you (you say)

I want to sleep and be alone (wait, what? )

I feel emotionally dead (you say)

thanks for the good times we had (Fuck You)

I changed (what happened ?!)

Life ( stop wanting to feel, stop feeling emotions isn’t that to feel dead?!)

Sometimes love is not enough (you say) (i disagree)

 

This moment when you understand, fear and Ego beats love. 

 

Self-improvement to become whole? (again) become better selfs?! 

Should we run? Should we try and stay? Should we let things be?

Running against a wall. Over and over. Waking, missing, crying. The turkey cold.  

 

It’s physical, radical, this desire, this burning just to be loved.